After careful thought.

Makya · 01-11-2007, 02:17 PM

I know I haven't been around much. It's been a a whole bunch of things twisted into one great big clusterfuck. And I know that I haven't posted any rants or anything lately to keep all my friends here updated on things. But after what happened with Shane, I've been kind of leary about doing much of anything. Until I got to thinking last night. (And yes it did hurt.) I really don't have much to fear anymore. The papers involving my son was made final two days ago so it really doesn't matter anymore. And I am not afraid that Jeremy is going to try to take Jeris and Rhone from me because of anything I post on here. I know he has access to the site and has talked to a few of you before. But since returning home to Texas, I have kind of changed. I don't do anything that would jeprodize my children and I have even stopped swearing around them. I still have a foul mouth when I am on here and when my kids aren't around, but when it all comes down to it, who the fuck cares what I post on here. Everyone has to have an outlet right? And MTW just happens to be mine. People really can't hold me to anything I post on here because in all due reality, this -IS- the internet. I don't -have- to be a mom online if I don't want to, I don't have to watch my mouth, and I certianly don't give two shits and a fuck what people think of me, online or in real life. I know who I am and I know what I have done and what I am capable of doing and I don't have anyone to impress, for the ones that I do care about, love me for who I am. And that's good enough for me.

I've been going through a lot since I have come home. Before I left Deleware, I had an extremely tender spot on the back of my head that has been causing me a great deal of pain. I had Scott take me to the ER once and right on New Years Eve, Tiffany took me because I found a lump on that spot. I go to the neurologist tomorrow to possibly get an MRI. In a way I am relieved because I am tired of being in so much pain but at the same time, I am scared shitless. I am deathly afraid of MRIs. I am extremely claustrophobic to begin with and I am going to have to be sedated completely for it. I was semi sedated with my last MRI and I still freaked out.

Then there is the thing with my father. That scares me. My father has been my hero since I was a little girl. My mom is just as scared as I am.

Then to top it all off, while I was in Deleware, someone called CPS on me. I believe I wrote about that before. The man that was handeling my case said he wanted to get it worked out so he didn't have to transfer it to Texas when I moved. I was completely honest with him and soon after arriving in Texas, I got a letter in the mail saying that the case was dismissed. Big relief off my shouders right? Wrong. I got a call from CPS here in Texas stating that someone had called them on me for the exact same reasons that was called on me in Deleware. Now at first, I thought it was Jeremy. Only two people had my address here. He being one of them and James and Cheryl the people I was staying with in Deleware the other. And at first I didn't think she or her husband were capable of doing something so low down and dirty. But then I began to hear things. While I was in DE, I became involved in a love triangle with my friend Cindy and her boyfriend Mike. They were the only people in DE that I slept with. I got a call from Mike saying that Cheryl called him telling him that they should get tested for STDs becuase I was sleeping with everyone in DE. Then I got a call from Jeremy concerning some lies that James told him, which I had to clear up. And then the thing that convinced me was that while I was in DE, Cheryl had taken me aside and told me that I should talk to my Dr about my depression. And I did. That was the one thing that the CPS officer asked me about and the only two people who knew I was temporarily on anti depressants until I got over this hump was Cheryl and James.

Afterall since I moved back to the states, I have been through a lot. I got seperated from my husband, he turned to low down dirty tricks to try to prove me as an unfit mother (which failed), we decided to get divorced which made me feel like a failure at the time because I couldn't fix my marriage, I found out that my room mates were beating my children, I was dating an asshole who fucked me over and I virtually lost -everything- that I had spent three years trying to build up, and on top of it all, there was the call I got from my mother telling me how bad my father was and that they were going to attempt surgery which they weren't sure was going to be efficent and the chances of him coming out of it were very poor. Now I am a very strong woman, but after so much shit dumped on my shoulders in a 6 months period anyone is bound to be just a little depressed.

I told the man this and told him that since coming home, I haven't been on my medication nor have I needed to have it. For the first time, I have a wonderful boyfriend who things I am drop dead gorgeous (Even though I think he needs his eyes checked) I am spending time with my father and my mother, my kids are progressing extremely well and for the first time Jerison is talking in full sentences, Jeremy and I have got a lot of issues out in the open and are actually getting along. And for the first time, life is getting close to perfect as it ever has been.

And All this bullshit with Cheryl and James is over the fact that I accidentally took her belt and a 5 dollar bottle of body spray. I didn't even realize that I had it at the time until I was in line at the airport. And then upon getting into DFW airport, the first thing going through my mind was seeing my family. And I honestly forgot. And when Jeremy tried to talk to her about the whole CPS thing, she told him that if I was trying to accuse her, I need to bring it and she would beat my ass. This coming from the woman who threatened to 'send me home in a body bag' if she ever saw me again and threatened to hurt my children who never did a damned thing to her but adore her and her husband. OVER A GOD DAMNED BELT! I didn't even get that pissed when she kept my $200 antique bed tray or threw away my tarot cards. Yes the tray was expensive, but I know when to cut my losses. The important thing is my kids.

Now there is a lot of things I am willing to put up with but threatening my children and calling CPS on me for false charges is one thing that I will not tolerate. And I strongly think that they are the ones who called on me in Deleware. It's kind of funny how the CPS man showed up on the day that they went to DC and I couldn't get ahold of them until much later. And if I find out that it was them, I will sue their asses not only for slander but for malicious intent. Mike and Sinn will testify in court to what they said to them

It's funny how your really find out who your friends are.

And from this point in time, the games on. I don't care what anyone thinks of me from what I post on here. Like I said earlier, I know who I am. I know who I have become. I may be covered in tattoos and piercings, but I am a better person than most simply because I have values and morals. And THAT is one thing a lot of people lack in the real world. It doesn't matter what I say here or what type of language comes out of my mouth in writing or other wise as long as my kids don't hear it. Fuck everything else.

Makie is back fuckers!

**WillRiker** · 01-11-2007, 02:32 PM

Welcome Back.

It's been kinda quiet around here without ya.

ReclusE · 01-11-2007, 02:33 PM

Welcome back Makie! Sorry about the bullshit.......I used to think mean people sucked now I just think people suck. I know eventually everything will work out for you, stay strong and never lose that adorable attitude!

Makya · 01-11-2007, 03:16 PM

People do suck in general. And they can all fucking kiss my ass. I aint no fucking door mat to just be walked on. Got sick of just letting things be. Aint going to happen no more.

**Maximal** · 01-11-2007, 04:11 PM

Well I can think of alot of smart ass remarks to make but I think over all I'm glad to see you standing back up for yourself. Welcome back!!!

Oh and BTW your boyfriends eyesight is perfectly fine!

**mommysalomi** · 01-11-2007, 05:11 PM

Welco,e back Makya...And I agree 100% with Maxi your boyfriends eyesight is just fine....And so are you !!!!!

Makya · 01-11-2007, 06:26 PM

You both are fucked in the eyes.

**WillRiker** · 01-11-2007, 07:02 PM

Well I'm not gonna comment, because I know I'm fucked in the eyes....

**Irondog** · 01-11-2007, 11:38 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Makya

You both are fucked in the eyes.

Is it just me or did anyone else get really turned on when the word "Fucked" comes out of Makya's mouth?

**Maximal** · 01-12-2007, 09:50 AM

I get turned on when she says anything, she is just that hot!!!

01-11-2007, 02:17 PM	#1 (permalink)
Makya MTW's Baddest Bitch Join Date: Apr 2004 Posts: 1,879	After careful thought. I know I haven't been around much. It's been a a whole bunch of things twisted into one great big clusterfuck. And I know that I haven't posted any rants or anything lately to keep all my friends here updated on things. But after what happened with Shane, I've been kind of leary about doing much of anything. Until I got to thinking last night. (And yes it did hurt.) I really don't have much to fear anymore. The papers involving my son was made final two days ago so it really doesn't matter anymore. And I am not afraid that Jeremy is going to try to take Jeris and Rhone from me because of anything I post on here. I know he has access to the site and has talked to a few of you before. But since returning home to Texas, I have kind of changed. I don't do anything that would jeprodize my children and I have even stopped swearing around them. I still have a foul mouth when I am on here and when my kids aren't around, but when it all comes down to it, who the fuck cares what I post on here. Everyone has to have an outlet right? And MTW just happens to be mine. People really can't hold me to anything I post on here because in all due reality, this -IS- the internet. I don't -have- to be a mom online if I don't want to, I don't have to watch my mouth, and I certianly don't give two shits and a fuck what people think of me, online or in real life. I know who I am and I know what I have done and what I am capable of doing and I don't have anyone to impress, for the ones that I do care about, love me for who I am. And that's good enough for me. I've been going through a lot since I have come home. Before I left Deleware, I had an extremely tender spot on the back of my head that has been causing me a great deal of pain. I had Scott take me to the ER once and right on New Years Eve, Tiffany took me because I found a lump on that spot. I go to the neurologist tomorrow to possibly get an MRI. In a way I am relieved because I am tired of being in so much pain but at the same time, I am scared shitless. I am deathly afraid of MRIs. I am extremely claustrophobic to begin with and I am going to have to be sedated completely for it. I was semi sedated with my last MRI and I still freaked out. Then there is the thing with my father. That scares me. My father has been my hero since I was a little girl. My mom is just as scared as I am. Then to top it all off, while I was in Deleware, someone called CPS on me. I believe I wrote about that before. The man that was handeling my case said he wanted to get it worked out so he didn't have to transfer it to Texas when I moved. I was completely honest with him and soon after arriving in Texas, I got a letter in the mail saying that the case was dismissed. Big relief off my shouders right? Wrong. I got a call from CPS here in Texas stating that someone had called them on me for the exact same reasons that was called on me in Deleware. Now at first, I thought it was Jeremy. Only two people had my address here. He being one of them and James and Cheryl the people I was staying with in Deleware the other. And at first I didn't think she or her husband were capable of doing something so low down and dirty. But then I began to hear things. While I was in DE, I became involved in a love triangle with my friend Cindy and her boyfriend Mike. They were the only people in DE that I slept with. I got a call from Mike saying that Cheryl called him telling him that they should get tested for STDs becuase I was sleeping with everyone in DE. Then I got a call from Jeremy concerning some lies that James told him, which I had to clear up. And then the thing that convinced me was that while I was in DE, Cheryl had taken me aside and told me that I should talk to my Dr about my depression. And I did. That was the one thing that the CPS officer asked me about and the only two people who knew I was temporarily on anti depressants until I got over this hump was Cheryl and James. Afterall since I moved back to the states, I have been through a lot. I got seperated from my husband, he turned to low down dirty tricks to try to prove me as an unfit mother (which failed), we decided to get divorced which made me feel like a failure at the time because I couldn't fix my marriage, I found out that my room mates were beating my children, I was dating an asshole who fucked me over and I virtually lost -everything- that I had spent three years trying to build up, and on top of it all, there was the call I got from my mother telling me how bad my father was and that they were going to attempt surgery which they weren't sure was going to be efficent and the chances of him coming out of it were very poor. Now I am a very strong woman, but after so much shit dumped on my shoulders in a 6 months period anyone is bound to be just a little depressed. I told the man this and told him that since coming home, I haven't been on my medication nor have I needed to have it. For the first time, I have a wonderful boyfriend who things I am drop dead gorgeous (Even though I think he needs his eyes checked) I am spending time with my father and my mother, my kids are progressing extremely well and for the first time Jerison is talking in full sentences, Jeremy and I have got a lot of issues out in the open and are actually getting along. And for the first time, life is getting close to perfect as it ever has been. And All this bullshit with Cheryl and James is over the fact that I accidentally took her belt and a 5 dollar bottle of body spray. I didn't even realize that I had it at the time until I was in line at the airport. And then upon getting into DFW airport, the first thing going through my mind was seeing my family. And I honestly forgot. And when Jeremy tried to talk to her about the whole CPS thing, she told him that if I was trying to accuse her, I need to bring it and she would beat my ass. This coming from the woman who threatened to 'send me home in a body bag' if she ever saw me again and threatened to hurt my children who never did a damned thing to her but adore her and her husband. OVER A GOD DAMNED BELT! I didn't even get that pissed when she kept my $200 antique bed tray or threw away my tarot cards. Yes the tray was expensive, but I know when to cut my losses. The important thing is my kids. Now there is a lot of things I am willing to put up with but threatening my children and calling CPS on me for false charges is one thing that I will not tolerate. And I strongly think that they are the ones who called on me in Deleware. It's kind of funny how the CPS man showed up on the day that they went to DC and I couldn't get ahold of them until much later. And if I find out that it was them, I will sue their asses not only for slander but for malicious intent. Mike and Sinn will testify in court to what they said to them It's funny how your really find out who your friends are. And from this point in time, the games on. I don't care what anyone thinks of me from what I post on here. Like I said earlier, I know who I am. I know who I have become. I may be covered in tattoos and piercings, but I am a better person than most simply because I have values and morals. And THAT is one thing a lot of people lack in the real world. It doesn't matter what I say here or what type of language comes out of my mouth in writing or other wise as long as my kids don't hear it. Fuck everything else. Makie is back fuckers! __________________ God was my copilot, but we crashed in the mountians and I had to eat him.

01-11-2007, 02:32 PM	#2 (permalink)
WillRiker Lusting Over Leelee Join Date: Aug 2003 Posts: 12,783	Re: After careful thought. Welcome Back. It's been kinda quiet around here without ya. __________________ MTW Merchandise - Get Your MTW Stuff From Morty NOW!!

01-11-2007, 02:33 PM	#3 (permalink)
ReclusE Junior Monkey Join Date: Jun 2005 Posts: 781	Re: After careful thought. Welcome back Makie! Sorry about the bullshit.......I used to think mean people sucked now I just think people suck. I know eventually everything will work out for you, stay strong and never lose that adorable attitude! __________________ When you push.....dont think that I wont shove!

01-11-2007, 03:16 PM	#4 (permalink)
Makya MTW's Baddest Bitch Join Date: Apr 2004 Posts: 1,879	Re: After careful thought. People do suck in general. And they can all fucking kiss my ass. I aint no fucking door mat to just be walked on. Got sick of just letting things be. Aint going to happen no more. __________________ God was my copilot, but we crashed in the mountians and I had to eat him.

01-11-2007, 04:11 PM	#5 (permalink)
Maximal I'm Surrounded by Retards Premium Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 11,978	Re: After careful thought. Well I can think of alot of smart ass remarks to make but I think over all I'm glad to see you standing back up for yourself. Welcome back!!! Oh and BTW your boyfriends eyesight is perfectly fine! __________________ Mortys Twisted Treasure Hunt

01-11-2007, 05:11 PM	#6 (permalink)
mommysalomi cannot get away Premium Member Join Date: May 2005 Posts: 5,296	Re: After careful thought. Welco,e back Makya...And I agree 100% with Maxi your boyfriends eyesight is just fine....And so are you !!!!! __________________ Cleverly disguised as a responsible adult

01-11-2007, 06:26 PM	#7 (permalink)
Makya MTW's Baddest Bitch Join Date: Apr 2004 Posts: 1,879	Re: After careful thought. You both are fucked in the eyes. __________________ God was my copilot, but we crashed in the mountians and I had to eat him.

01-11-2007, 07:02 PM	#8 (permalink)
WillRiker Lusting Over Leelee Join Date: Aug 2003 Posts: 12,783	Re: After careful thought. Well I'm not gonna comment, because I know I'm fucked in the eyes.... __________________ MTW Merchandise - Get Your MTW Stuff From Morty NOW!!

01-12-2007, 09:50 AM	#10 (permalink)
Maximal I'm Surrounded by Retards Premium Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 11,978	Re: After careful thought. I get turned on when she says anything, she is just that hot!!! __________________ Mortys Twisted Treasure Hunt

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