As I read Bunnyman's last ramble I saw that everyone has their own problems and bullshit they have to deal with on a daily basis so I guess I am no different. Sorry to hear about your job B-man.........I am sure you will find something better. My wife is in the same business as a server so I know what you mean about the BS you guys put up with dealing with customers. I know I couldn't do your job and I always take into consideration what you guys do when I go to eat out.
As for me............well, I have been dealing with a stepson that seems to blame me for everything that is wrong with his life and on Friday it all came to a head at his probation officers office. After meeting the PO for about 15 minutes she stepped out of the office to get a drug test for our son and when she did he said that he wished he could just die so he didn't have to deal with all the bullshit that he is facing. This prompted me to tell the PO when she got back what he had said and as I knew would happen she had to take it seriously and called in a Sheriff to interview our son to see if he was serious. As they put the cuffs on him.........for his own protection as well as keeping the situation under control he looked at me and said "I hope your happy now.......now they can take me away and you won't have to deal with me anymore." They admitted him into the physco ward in Riverside which is an ugly place and are deciding if he is serious about killing himself.
Every once in awhile something happens that makes you stop and think about life and look at all the pressures we deal with on a daily basis. I am the type of person that has never thought about killing myself, even though I have had my share of crap to deal with growing up. I have a real hard time understanding depression even though I take a happy pill myself.......for a different reason though. Talk about cutting me to the bone though, what he said really caught me off guard and has been on my mind all day. I hope that he talks to the shrinks and tells them all that is upsetting him. They can only help if he opens up to them. As for me............I am going to use this as a lesson to try to use when my daughters get older so they don't feel the need to do anything drastic.
Needless to say, it is affecting my relationship with my wife and at times I forget to be compassionate and all hell breaks loose. All I want is my family to be happy and safe.........I will do everything in my power to make sure that happens. So anyways.......sorry to throw all this depressing shit out there but I always seem to feel better when I do.
Of course..........it always makes me feel better to make fun of Max too.....
Later BUTTWIPES!!!!
